The Drunken Mind is Back.

Carry it.. Will you forever ?
Caress it and forsake it never?
In your little heart warm,
And away from harm.

I gave my heart to you then,
And I never once knew when;
How I never once thought,
It was always you, I sought;

Let the sands of time halt to a dot,
Let the winds of change touch not,
This last moment that I got ;
When I see you with me sing,
The song that our hearts string;

Will the moon for me come down,
And in my love, make your heart drown;
Will the moon for me speak true,
In a words few , that I love you;

I gift you my heart forever,
But sadly, I will now know never;
Beautiful you look, in this bridal gown,
Eyes closed, brows without a frown.
On this bed of roses, 6 feet down.

Dear, One last time open your eyes,
I have had enough of your lies;
Your denial killed you, not I,
You loved me, yet you die,
You Always loved me, dont you lie.

What a bitch life is..!

Author's Note: Excerpt taken from a book , which i read recently. I found it worth sharing.

"Love.it happens only once... n did i experience it?? i reallly dont know... but i did encounter one girl whom i thought i really liked.. n liked more than likeness permits.....She was very sweet and nice to me... n i had this feeling that i could do anything for her and when i say anything i really mean it.... i gave her thousand indications that i love her, that i want to be more than just a friend , that shez my life... but she never once responded.. I cant blame her.. May be she never liked me the way i did... I did whatever i could within my limits to help her, to support her whenver she needed... I never felt like this before.. I was happy just thinking about her..just hearing her sweet voice... with simple expectations that ultimately she will love mee.... and why should nt I , We used to talk whenever we felt like ... we didnt care what hour of the night it was... what people will think about it... it was just us... We used to share everything ... we used to fight, we usd to love each others company.. though we rarely met.. still we were so close... I could hear it wheneve she was in trouble.... dont know how things wuld ve turned if we were in the same city.. i was willin to gve it a chance... i was willin to give whatever we had a try as i knew that what we shared was somethin special which only a few on earth can experience.. But.....

She never once understood....... Now we dont talk ... why ?? i dont know.. may be one sided love has an expiry date after all ... it cant be termed friendship... Girls have this feelings ..i wll say insecurity... that boys will cheat them... will take them for a ride n then leave them.. though many will but all wont .. there are always a few.. who will never do that.. they cant even think of such obscenity... for them its a different game all together .. one that involves life and death.. they do deserve a chance... one chance... But they never get.....

People say girls use boys.. but doesnt friendship mean that only in an encrypted manner... why wont a friend help his frend when she needed him most.. he cant stop it.. its not in his nature... he will give his life if required.. n then people say girls are smart.. may be they are.. but are they.. ??

In the end she couldnt even recognize what she could have had, had she given this foolish ass hole one decent chance.. only time will say who played it betteer.. ultimately life is a game that wont end in 20 overs, in 50 overs or in one innings.... it wil go on...."

PS: Resemblance to anyone dead or alive is purely intended.

Romeo and Juliet.

So dear friends, well m back ....And here is something interesting... Please dont mistake this as my story...  but this is inspired from a true story....:) : )

Romeo and Juliet :

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Well, Romeo met Juliet on a saturday evening lovely,

Soon he found a meaning in his life newly,

And Romeo's life turned into a morning overnight;

Juliet, a sweet smile and a pretty sight;

Every feelings, every thought they shared,

Happiness into his life she bared; 

The lady of Romeo's dream was Juliet,

Love struck him , aah like a bullet;

Each moment they spend was a wonder token,

Romeo got into a committment unspoken;

But they havent yet met,

And still blessed with no date set;

Distance was not a matter,Romeo surmised,

Juliet was his life's best surprise;

Romeo said, Dear, so much you i miss,

Juliet said,Dear,You are destiny's sweetest kiss;

And then came saint Valentine's best;

Romeo asked Juliet out for the next;

Juliet flashed a smile with care,

Dear,so soon how did you dare;

Finally Romeo met Juliet one fine day,

And was left with nothing to say;

Swept from his feet he was,

Love and only love it was;

Then Juliet soon went to a land new,

Away from Romeo and his crew;

Pain with hope it was for him,

Love wont so easily dim;

Days became long and nights longer,

Romeo grew restless and breathless;

For Juliet's calls he would wait ,

But he would never get;

Romeo searched for that thing lost,

Yes, with her it was still there;

And hope came back in a flicker,

Along with  a few moments of shiver;

I Love You, Romeo said,

You are the one Juliet;

I know there is more than this ,

Every moment with you is bliss;

Juliet replied, You are my friend sweet,

Please dont do this shit;

We talk and thats all,

How can you with me in love fall;

Romeo: But the way we share,

I felt you really care;

Juliet: Care i do for many,

Why you behaving so uncanny?

So friendship it was for Romeo,

But yes he enjoyed a nice little cameo;

Juliet was as innocent as poison sweet,

No wonder Juliet,Romeos have become your treat;

But what Romeo didnt understand;

If this is friendship, where does love stand;

Sadly for Love, Friendship could never depart ,

Romeo returned back to pavilion, retired hurt;

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Wonder how Juliet will react after reading this?? Romeo you may be murdered...:):)

IN OOTY...

A breath taking ride that at times threatened to take our breathe away...but undettered , we geared up .Had to take a break at around 15 more such hair pin bends away from the valley.
One and a half hour later , we reached ooty and soon after found a decent hotel to stay...

In the evening we decided to go out for a walk, and experience the chilling cold. But being IT employees net seems not be leave your ass easily, we all ended up in a net cafe as we had to book return tickets for Dewal. The night was chilllin cold and even a jacket with sweater seemed not enough to protect from the piercing cold.
For this particular night, which i choose to term as the 'Blue Label' night, we ordered special food as tonight the Johnny was coming! Though i was not in a mood that night, but Dewal who actually got this genuine bottle of scotch from UK really was .
He had after all waited for this night since the day he had bought that ultimate piece of art...
Though Johnny ,the Blue one, is best with ice , our great waiters couldnt understand , what ice means. Every time we asked them about ice they used to respond with something far exceeding our minimal expectatiosns...the best one being , 2 bottles of sur welaam (lukewarm water).
Unabashed by these initial setbacks , we let the Blue night begin... And as we got gripped in its splendour , the night seemed more and more serene.
Dewal was the one who got the kick most as he was the one who had carved for it the most....and also he was the one who had brought it from foreign.....after all it was a drink worth 18k in India.
I didnt realize it initially ..but later understood how much it meant for him to have this drink with his closest friends...Bibs and Ani...( i was just lucky to be there!)...going to the UK and getting the very best for his closest friends just for this one night to spend together spoke hugely about the bond of friendship that they shared...the sense of accomplishment was writ large on his face(see the pic--->isnt it??)
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The next day as u can imagine didnt start early, and by the time we started it was already afternoon.So no wonder that we could visit only one sight scene location , the Ooty Lake.
The boat ride we took was fun.
And then we went to an ancient 18th century shrine.


Early next morning we started our journey back .....on the way down those hair pin bends ....we could smell something was heating up...the brake shoes of our car had gone wildly hot due to some wrong driving application ....we had to take a break for around one hour to allow them to cool down...

The only signs of wildlife we saw while travelling through Bandipur National Park...were a few elephants grazing in the sun...this has prompted us to take another trip to bandipur and this time to take the forest department safari which promises much more...


So till next time..Cheers!!

Grand Finale 2008!!

So the year ended....and by the grace of Almighty(is he Bruce or Evan??)..i had a blast in the last two months of the year..each day was a better day than the last and i was(am) happy...though occassionally bored but then i stumbled upon an ultimate source of entertainment....[:)] (whats dat i cant say right now!)

The christmas weekend this year was one of the best. We four, me, my bro(bibs), ani and dewal...took our car and headed 250 km south wards from bangalore towards Mudumalai National Park , Tamil Nadu on the 25 th to experience the untamed Wild wild life . Speeding away at around 100kms/hr , and with the all time hit classic rock songs being played on the background, the ride was totally awesome!!

Reaching mysore, our first break was on a road side dhaba where after a short refreshment session we headed of again , another 110 kms was there to cover and it was gettin dark slowly. The road was not a four lane highway anymore, and was more of a bumpy dusty kind and with bull carts being pulled on both sides of the road, our progress slowed down greatly even though my bro tried his best to keep floorin at around 80km/hr..he really drove fast even under those conditions..great driver i agree...

After around 2 hours more of riding, we entered the dreaded forest(Bandipur National Park) where verappan once prowled...it was a moonless night...really scary ride with dense forests on both sides and a very narrow road. We almost brushed through the trees. The sign boards spoke heavily of the unspoken danger that existed in those lands. 'Elephant Territory.'Blow no horn' , ' U are in the den of Wildlife..Be a silent traveller', "No Pics, No Parking(who the hell wil park there anyway??)', 'Wildlife passing route', and many more.

The best one i saw was 'I beg u not to feed me!!' with a pic of a baboon with all his beautiful teeths exposed. All on a sudden we discovered , we were the only vehicle in that road...it really turned the fear buttons on..we just drove as fast as possible defying the 40km/hr limit . And soon found the others once we re joined the main road. Actually we had diverted off onto an untaken route.

Once Karnataka was crossed, we entered into Mudumalai National Park, Tamil Nadu...40 minutes later we reached the forest resort which we had booked for the night ....and there unfolded the events of the night.

It was not very cold, but a chilling wind was piercing through. It was pitch dark and we had the feeling that there an unseen danger , smeelling humans , just at the backyard sittin silently watching and waiting to pounch. Amidst all these we decided to party outside and with the music system of the car turned on at a slow volume, it provided the perfect ambiece for a long deep high night.

Loaded with the most expensive imported drinks like Johnny walker-Blue Label , Glenmorangie (courtesy dewal) and Malibu..it was an unforgetful night and a night to cherish for many days. Time just flew away and when i ate some dinner and slept of on the bed of the eight bedded dormitory , i dont remember even now.

Next morning i was the first one to wake up and what i saw outside was absolute beauty. There were some wild birds basking outside and hoping to take some pics, slowly approached near them to find to my utter disgust that those were some statutes of birds(u know what caused this right..??) The safari which they promised was also not an inforest ride but only through the same road which we rode on the night.

Since we were only 28kms away from ooty so , we decided to head off towards ooty. Only problem was to reach ooty we had to cross 36 hair pin bends---a damn dangerous task for us..
This pic on my right shows the 8 dorm house where we stayed.

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So 36 hair pin bends, we chose to undertake and soon after set off ........(to be continued)

M getting Tagged!

First one ..so bear with me...

The Tag:

Being tagged by Hari, these tag ques are basically taken from him. Its about contemplating on a few things in life.

Yesterday:

hmm...let me think.

Your oldest Memories..
I took around ten minutes thinking yaar..n still thinking....quite old huh..??

My life started in a BRPL colony. Its a peaceful place with a silent atmosphere, where the days are quiet and the nights are quieter. And in that pacific ambience lived one little , sweet boy with an inclination towards innovative destruction. He was the 'dennis the menace' kind of character of the colony. And in one of his many adventures he shot a crow baby dead with a catapult . Till now its him , so where do i fit in?...
In that very fine morning when he after committing this act of rare chivalry was basking off in the paddy field ( with the American cowboy music playing behind), i was sent by my mom to summon him back home. And in the way as i was running towards him , a huge bird landed on my head and scalped off a large patch of my hair...man, yeah..it literally pulled out my hair!

It was the crow whose baby martyred in the hands of my bro....he was my bro!

What were you doing 10 years ago...
Dec 1998...hmm...my annual exams of class 6 would have just got over...and i remember having an interest in painting then. And in this vacation , i did one grt thing..(m not sure if it was exactly this vac...but its worth telling...:)...). Since the very first day of my school , i liked one girl(nursey class..too much right,....but thats how it was...i used to cry if she didnt come to school....) . In this vac, for the first time i went to her house. But alas, she was not there dat day.

I came back after her mom fed me with britannia biscuits.

Today:

Your first thought in the morning

Today was really a nice day...I woke up early (10 am)..and my first thought was abt the dream i was seeing..its vague now ...but yeah i remember...i saw dostana yesterday...so u can imagine what the nature of my dream would be...it was scary man...

But then i remembered....i had to go to learn biking today from one of my friend. (what happened in that session, when i was learning biking, is another blog...)

If you built a time-capsule today, what would it contain ?

time capsule....first of all m i goin to the past or future...??

PAST: I would have taken a gun for sure...there are a lot of people in this world who should not have been born...
And if its an ancient past, it might give me the status of a GOD with such sophisticated devices. A bike will also be good..(provided i learn it by then..). And something like wikipedia will be handy..(hari ,wiki cant be left right?)

FUTURE: To go to the future is very risky...may be we will start living in Mars by then. Or maybe Al-qaida will make the world a Afghanistan...or maybe aliens will attack....or the sun will dry out....i dont wanna go so far..present is best...a visit to the past is preferred though!

Tomorrow:

This year?

A nice year ..almost over though. Started earning and learning many new technologies. I became an engineer in this year..so its a milestone year anyway. And one of my well thought out thoughts worked perfectly this year....

I recharged my mobile for 500 in jan this year..that is at start of 8th sem ...and its validity is ending in 27Dec..At that time i thought by the time this validity will be over , my engineering shall be validated.( i meant i should get a job by then)..and it turned true...


What you see yourself doing 14 years from now ..?

14 years....should be married ofcourse....with a beautiful wife...And i should be working as the Director -Engineering of some kick ass new technology....may be 'mind- reading', 'invisible man concept'..even the'time-capsule' cant be ruled out...

I also have a dream of going to all the greatest sanctuaries of this world.. savanna, kalahari, amazon...everything..(national geography effect!) .maybe i will be on such a safari then....camping in a wild forest ,where u can hear the lion roaring just beside you, and the temperature gone below human limits. And yeah i almost forgot , m not alone, theres a blonde hot babe with me too...

I Tag:

The first lady who reads this blog tomorrow morning........(or at least leave a comment yaar..[:)]..)

its quite late m sleeping sleeping ...bye

Bored!!!

I can see the sun set through my window , the last birds of the evening are flying towards their abode. I lay jobless as one more day approaches its end. With the last cigarette of the day already over, its a gloomy evening ahead unless i go and get some more. The music is playing on my headphones at the highest volume it can possibly play. Its an attempt to shut myself out from the outer world lost in the melody of HIM.

I am unaware where my life is heading. With the cat over,one more time and with that my fragile hopes were crushed once more. Though i wont say , i screwed my butt out for it but you still know the human mind right..?...it wishes to deserve things which it probably doesnot deserve with the amount of effort invested.

Here at home. the crazy kant family is going at its 'badoor' speed. Just being over with a wild viral run that took out one by one , each of the brave kants, its time for some contemplation. The last man to fall was P_kant.


One more weekend is on its way to come offer a kiss and leave tempting us for the next one. But is this what i am left to desire , just another weekend. Is there nothing else waiting ahead except a sick weekend , which we will probably pass sleeping , at most a few more pegs will slip through the throat, invoking the drunken mind once again.I dont know.


In one of the crazy kant-discussions( that often take place here) we were pondering how life would have been, had it started not the way it starts. I mean how would it be had it been ninety when u were born. Every passing day you would grow younger, energetic and with every passing day your possibilities will increase. With evey passing day you will realize that u are living more, and not approahing one step closer towards the end.

You will know that at around fifty you will be most successful , your peak and life after that i.e at forties , probably you will be having a couple of buggin kids. And the years head i.e at around thirties would be the time when you would probably be busy( unless something very likely these days st(e)rile...sorry strike you) analyzing what the process of rapid to and fro oscilations has to offer you.And further ahead ie at twenties , your lab works would start where if you are smart enough you would get to experiment with another species, which God has wisely left for our species to explore.

As life would get younger every passing day, every next day will be a day more beautiful than the previous one. You would know the results of the exam before you gave them . You would know which project of your life would turn you into a master of your field and which caused your doom. You would know which girls rejected you and which ones were foolish enough to fall for you. You would know which of your dreams succedded and which remainded as dreams. The enemies and friends will be clearer and above all it would be easier to find the love of your life( from the species i mentioned above, unless u are a subdivision of the species i belong to. In which case you would be happy with one amongst us)

Enticing isint?..The possibilies are infinite. But alas, this is not what you are so lucky to enjoy. Its left only to the mind to conceive all these and earn a smile pondering over these seemingly unlikely possibilities.

So another fucked up weekend it is for us right now...enjoy...n yeah CHEERS